Joe

Yesterday Joe finally was able to call. He wanted me to pick him up in Norwich and bring him to the house so he could pack his things himself. He talked of moving up to Plainfield to live in his camper while he gets it fixed. He talked of moving out to Indiana to get a new start. He talked of us getting married because he wants to spend his life with me. I do NOT want to marry him... or anyone else for that matter.

I want to spend my current time alone and with my children. I want to get my stuff reduced to an acceptable and manageable amount. There is no need to hang on to stuff that will never be needed again. Sonnet and Joshua have outgrown their toys. All that money spent for that stuff to sit in storage so long. Lesson learned, hopefully.

Phones

The phone rings. Why? I hate phones! Phones are a bother. If they only brought joyful news it would be ok. But people just want to talk your ear off. They are lonely. Would be so much easier if you were sitting there with them, talking, sipping coffee or tea, WITH them.

Phones are hard in the summer. They stick to your ear with sweat. They cramp up your neck from having to hold the phone with your head to have two hands free.

My kids like to call me. That is a good thing. Sometimes I don't know what to say to them. Sometimes they just say 'hello', and expect me to talk... about anything! My mother calls me. She can talk for hours, about all kinds of things.

I don't get anything done when I am on the phone. Used to be, when I had a corded phone, that I got all kinds of things done while listening. I used to do dishes, vacuum, even put laundry in. Now that I have a cordless phone, I tend to sit to listen. I wonder why that is.